What stops me from writing but I'm starting anyway

18 Jul, 2023

I will portray myself as an exaggerated intellectual. Taking photos, singing, painting, these are normal hobbies. You want to write some pseudo-deep sentences to teach us something? Who are you? Socrates?
I will write some bullshit, and my smart friends will brutally point it out. Some of them really enjoy arguing about minor details, and being correct is the most important to them.
I will get bored after a few weeks. Just like many exciting ideas in the past, it might only be exciting in my dreams. The actual act of doing it is boring.
I don't do it out of the pure joy of writing. Instead, I do it because it fits into the nerdy, intellectual lifestyle. I want to gain a little fame, be seen as a smart person, or simply have something to show off.
It's bad. It sounds great in my head, but when I type it out, it suddenly feels so cheap and cringy. I obsess over finding better words, which is exhausting. I'll drown in perfectionism.

I feel excitement whenever I come across a cute little blog where real and honest people share their thoughts. And I think to myself, I want to do the same.
Deep down, I know that I need a place to express myself, cultivate a virtual garden, just unleash my creativity in some form.
My psychiatrist told me it would be a good idea :')
If my friend started writing, I would think, "Oh, that's so cool! I wish I had done the same."
Facing my fears may be a good way to overcome them.

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